[ main astrological events mentioned: The first eclipse of 2019, the moon at 15 deg Capricorn. ]
We had quite the storm with the new moon/lunar eclipse in Capricorn that occurred on the 5th of this months, I thought I won’t get past it alive as the numbness was all over my head, I couldn’t feel like I am normally living life as everything around me felt like a floaty dream.
I mean come on the new moon conjunct the weirdest two planets in my natal chart, as an Aquarius (Venus, Saturn), I am familiar with the energies of this planet but Neptune… Neptune was the straw that broke the camel’s back to being honest.. as I have been abstaining from using any painkillers for more than a month, the whole vibe of that moon was as if I had one too many painkillers… so as I was enjoying my floaty mood obnoxiously, the whole world was chanting for a little girl that left her country, calling her names and some support her act, to me I was a little bit too calculated, I asked what if I was her, what would I do and to where would like to go. My family will flip, my death would be closer than ever, but would it matter, the first thought was will it be Ireland? or would I go where I don’t decide, let destiny guide me the way it did in late 2016 and late 2017.
The outrage over a runner is such a funny thing, it made me call out on all the fairness and compare, no one can be fair but we at least try, punish all people equally regardless of who or what they are. Sometime for us to think of privileges we repeat the following sentence: “I wish I was a guy” with external extra skin instead of internal one, I never wished it cause I loved being who I am, with all the flaws, gender with privileges isn’t going to make me feel as comfortable as I am, so why the fuss with wishing such.
It was all the result of years of a trust fading away between two genders, one has to establish a powerful move to conceal insecurity, and to maintain such act they had to bully each other into being powerful. I don’t trust the history books anymore but if you looked at it broadly you’ll see the bigger picture, the women were always fucked over the years regardless of geographical area they lived in.
“I myself have never been able to find out precisely what feminism is: I only know that people call me a feminist whenever I express sentiments that differentiate me from a doormat, or a prostitute.” ― Rebecca West